bang bang.

i sin , but im not a devil.
im good, but im not an angel. "


imaa lost cause, but dont come and find me. -







helllooo world.
spring is here .
which means my birthday is coming up.

the big 1 8.
im excited , but im not odde excited. we all get older.
just gonna protray my self a little differently . & thats all ima sayy about that.

ever wonder what your futuree holds?.

ever kept saying to yourself, "everything happens for a reason" ?

i dnt believe in that quote anymore.

i dnt think everything happens for a reason.

i believe with every mistake theres a sidee effect.

but i wouldnt use the word "reason" .

thats just me. but speak for yourself.










marylin monroe = beautiful. w/ flaws & all.






andy warhol = a fucking genius. far from similar.

damn. givee me a time machine. so i could go way back.

i feel as though i missed out. oh what greatness really is.

you dont have to do stuff that average people understand because those are only the good things - warhol

fucc fairytales.

i deserve the truth.
the whole truth.
and nothingg but the truth .

let me cut to thee chasee.

im in need of a hug.
not no quickie shit either. like a nice long hug.


psh, ivee been gonee wit the wind.




wish i was there.

back then they used to livee free.

lets go back to the old ways .

free spirit.

matterfact.

close your eyes i'll take you there.`

in my mind.

i know im not perfect
but please dont shoot me down ......

as she holds bacc her emotions.




deres a reason behind every smile.

thats just my cover up. -

please dont shoot me down.

.

evry problem that you ever had with another woman, i gotta face.


"queen , she deserve the tittle "





im just trynna be the one not to run, but you run away from me.

WIFE, she deserves the label , but she been hurt so much that she dont feel she's able.



"see all i wanna do is be relevant
Just tell me that i ever meant anything or.
that you could ever see me and you in another light."



- Money, nothing i can buy , can buy more time for you ears to tell your heart to listen.


"her minds is in the clouds.
she writes it all down "








sometimes, i wish this is all a dream & that i can wake up at any given time when something goes wrong.

but , only problem is you cant runaway from your problems.

your problems are your shadows , but you cant stay in the shade forever.

thats why you should keep the sunshine and save me the rain.

in my mind-

my thoughts-

my emoitions.

they say what dont kill you makes you stronger.

then , please tell me why the fucc my heart is so weak?

excusee my french emoitions.

for they are not tamed.

only bottled up insidee.

so everychance they get, the come out too strong.

im not trynna make you runaway from me. im just trynnaa make you feel me, your eyes are blind , so hopefully your heart will listen.

i would tell you not to leave me alone.

but you did. so i stand alone.

.

Only fair thing in this world is karma.

shee is a bitch , but she treats you how you need to be treated.

she hasnt been treating me as lovely as she should.

but i give her time, even though my patience is running low & my heart is weak , & my emotions are bottled up.

i give her time. the more you rush the longer it takes.

jay z always said "life is but a beach chair"

so i lay bacc and relax . while the world take its toll.

damn, even though i said dont shoot me down. ; they still shot fires .

they missed.

but, they didnt miss my heart.

r.i.p to the pure heart i had.

no intentions on hurting a soul.

but every soul had intentions on hurting me.

.

she deserves the tittle.

so what i do is channel my aggresion with no cable or antenna, just intenions to impress you, if capable.

ha!

but you dont understand me
so let me explain.........




she buries herself under these materials.

just causee theres pain insidee you , doesnt mean the outside world should kno.

but shh. our little secret.

"open up your hearts people, page one, chapter one, verse muthafuckin one "









damn, sometimes i wish i could live in the 1920's.

where they had speakeasies & listen to jazz music.

where liquor was illegal and girls would dress likee flappers wit their beautiful pin curls and loud dresses with long cigarettes and still be classy.

- what is there to live for?

in our generation; nothing.

where theres; war, poverty, no unity, no trust , no helping hand.

where you cant even be different, cause your a product of your environment..

in a place where you'll be called and outkast , if you stand out a little.

a place where you have no choice but to be angry.

a place where theres no - love.

well if theres no place like home.

i dont wanna live here ; in this generation to be exact.

do you roger me?











TOODLES :)